I went on VACATION. To NC to visit Jason, D and Jen. GPS told me to take 501, that was a lot of fun. Slow, but curvy. hmm curves. it was AWESOME.

Link to TRIP ROUTE

We didn't even go sight seeing. And no we didn't go to the beach. Fuck the beach. Hell I didn't even go to Starbucks until I drove home today. Yesterday, whatever. Sunday. I hate allergies... Also I never know what to do around dogs.. and small children. D and Jen have 2 dogs. no kids..... This was also the first time that I met Jen, but damn she and D are so well matched/suited. Speaking of matched...... Crystal is getting married on September 13th. CRAZY.

Who is going to play WARHAMMER ONLINE? I tried to read through the lore this weekend and watch J and D play a game but I couldn't follow it..... The bickering was soothing though. Always a comfort to hear those two argue. I used to go to sleep listening to them on Ventrillo when we were playing WoW and DAoC. So yeah we're all going to play WAR online and I have no idea what to play really.... I was thinking Chaos Zealot and High Elf White Lion... I just want my beloved Dragoon and Bard without playing FFXI again because that would mean I'd be alone even with Komet by my side. :'(

Today I did in fact go with Catherine to Starbucks some time after 3pm.  I ordered a coffee frap and we sat down next to the manager.  Took me 10 minutes to finally say OK I want to fill out an application. I haven't done one, let alone work in over a year.   Catherine went to get my info out of the car.  See this way if I didn't want to it just looked like we came for a drink only.  They'd be none the wiser, except they could probably feel my tension.  It took me over an hour to fill it out.  Problems arise.  My handwriting is worse then I remember it, harder to do.  I didn't have any references with me and I didn't bring my phone.  Catherine convinced me we could go home and finish it and be back in time.  Roughly 4:30pm.

After a few phone calls Angelique, Jeff and Jason agree to be my references.  I finish up the missing info, make a copy of the resume, and back out we go.  I wall back inside at 6:08pm to find out the manager has left.  I had her say earlier that the job fair was a bust.  Few and far between.  I keep thinking I should have said something to her before we left.  That should not have really mattered though.  She left an hour early when the advertised time was 1pm-7pm.  Big no no. 

I left my resume and the application with one of the girls and we went home.  The manager will be in tomorrow.  I applied to the Waynesboro Starbucks a few years ago, but declined when they called back because Jeff and Toys 'R Us had already accepted me.  If they were interested then, why not now?? 

Looking now I see that I dated it yesterday.

They are taking away all our stock in the backroom. NoooooooooooooooOOooOooOoooooOOOooooo. This means we will be closing earlier. They plan on getting everything out by Monday night or so. :( All so that Best Buy can move in early or whatever. DAMN U Jay and R (is for Bob)!!!!!

Saw Narnia tonight. That movie was awesome. I kept getting giddy at random times, because it made me think of WoW or other things....We went because my parents had to watch it for Sunday school class. (ya rly).

Odd ramblings I had a while back that I feel like sharing with you all. Also shows you what Jay has to put up with...


( FFVIII Oddness....(moreso my own oddness..) )

Story in question: If My Heart Weren't Broken

Last night/today was the last day I worked night crew at Toy's 'R Us. It was fun and crazy. The week before Christmas we were doing 12 hour shifts, 8pm to 8am. This past week it was 10pm to 6am. The week goes from Sunday - Saturday. Tuesday I'll be back to mornings but still stocking, so only 7am - 11am. It's in Harrisonburg so its about a 45 minute drive. So I've felt dead lately, just literally work and sleep.

I did see Tonya and the kids a few times, but it still hurts me so much. At least on Christmas eve I was able to hold back my tears till I actually left her house. I loved giving the kids their presents though.

My boss, the Store Director at TRU plays WoW. I've been playing with J and his crew, but Jeff (my boss) wants me to play with him too. I am gonna roll a toon to play with him but it will be interesting. He always talks on and on about the game and it's been a little funny because everyone else at work is like OH GOD HERE WE GO AGAIN........ I smile and nod and put in my 2 cents when I can and try not to laugh when I see the other employee's reactions. I really do think it's cool that he plays though.

Ysarric: hey
Ysarric: i was at work today, and near the end a female co-worker was like
Ysarric: "you know who you look like with your hair liek that?" (i had cut my hair recently)
Ysarric: "you look like Seth Green"
Ysarric: and one of the truck drivers goes "yeah, i was also thinking that. how's buffy doin'?"
Ysarric: and the girl asks the driver "you watch buffy?"
Ysarric: we all had to laugh
Ysarric: i told crystal the story and that i didn't feel like getting into correctly the driver n all
Ysarric: but Crys is like "well, you DO have that going for ya. I mean, you're ex-gf turned to a lesbian as well!"
Ysarric: and that was funny :-)

Ysarric: oy vey, there's too many extremely demanding women out there
SaraLe: yes
Ysarric: (reading profiles on a dating site)
Ysarric: reading stuff liek this makes me think that mebbe my loner path isn't so crazy after all
Ysarric: i do miss the fun physical contact, but at least i don't have to play games or met someone else's nutty demands
Ysarric: lord knows, i certainly wouldn't fit them right out the box!
Ysarric: hahaha
Ysarric: oh oh oh
Ysarric: this reminds me
Ysarric: i was at mom-mom's on sunday after work
Ysarric: small gathering. just them, crys n I
Ysarric: and we're sitting, watching the game, reading stuff, occassional chats
Ysarric: and i guess it was getting quiet, so the g-parent's were poking some fun at me and my lacking dating life
Ysarric: and pop-pop of all people sez, "what, are you waiting for the perfect guy to come along?!"
Ysarric: i'm like "dude, that's even more wrong coming from you"
SaraLe: WTF. lol
Ysarric: and there's laughter. i think a moment and ask "what, would ya liek fer me to be a womanizer to make you feel better? :-)"
Ysarric: and now mom-mom chirps up and sez, "that'd be nice! :-)"
SaraLe: omg your family -_-;
Ysarric: so, now i can find hot chicks and grope their tits and THEN tell them "yeah, sorry. I'm jsut trying to make my grandparents proud!"
Ysarric: i think that's a cool deal
Ysarric: playing that game agian?
SaraLe: lol
SaraLe: omg i need to post that.
Ysarric: hahaha, my mockage is fair game :-)

I love Jason.. His family is cool, but its scary when they turn this stuff on me.. Can we say deer in headlights?

My second home is Blockbuster.

I am now eligible and signed up for insurance through Blockbuster. In order for me to get these benefits I have to work 35 hours every week. Which equals 2 days off a week, which are always random.. My schedule is never the same but that's retail...

I don't think I ever talked about her but the bitch manager Jen is gone. She walked out on us.. Her boyfriend, who used to work at blockbuster as well turned her keys in last Tuesday.. She was already leaving Thursday, but I guess Monday night was so bad that she couldn't handle it.. She just couldn't handle BBV IMO. Monday sucked. I worked from 1PM to 12:30AM. Since she walked, Will, Mark and I have had to work all week long. its not cool. We're all so tired. But we have someone from Roanoke transferring....

I have about 12 hours of vacation time that I have to use before the end of October. That's only about 1 and a half work days, but Mark (my boss) said he could work it so I could have a full weekend off. I want to use that to go see Jay.. I haven't seen him in forEVAR.

My grandfather's 95th birthday was this Monday. We had a big celebration Sunday. Catherine drove down here to Staunton, and I drove us to WV. I talked with her, and I don't think she's doing so well... but better than before I guess. She's heavily medicated, trying to get by day by day. I think I may have already told some of you that she called my parents saying she wanted to kick Mark (her husband) out and needed financial support. Well I dont know if she will still do it. She changes her mind every day... because they still love each other or whatever. BLAH. There's also something she told me that bothers me ...that I dont feel like posting... If you ask me maybe i'll tell you.. =/

I traded in my Toyota and Honda and got a Volkswagen... So now I have 2 bills instead of 3...

I named her Blue Mary....

My parents, Jay and I went to Ryan's tonight for dinner. On the way back I asked them if they wanted to watch any movies. In other words if there was anything they want me to rent for them.. My dad asked me what I had in mind and I said the League of Extraordinary Gentlemen. My mom asked who was in the movie and I explained that Sean Connery plays Alan Quartermain.

Dad: Who wants to watch an old man? (referring to Sean Connery)
Mom: I would.. (She totally has a thing for him.)
Dad: Why when you can watch this old man for free..?
Jay: OH MY GOD...(lalallala I can't hear anything).

I'm laughing the whole time and my mom was going on about how Sean has a certain air about him or something.. She totally ignored Dad.

Christmas shopping so far... Is extremely lacking.

I've gotten Jay's present, but I've had that for ages and made him open it today.
Bought Georgia's yesterday.
Only got the first part of Rachel's today.
Eddie tells me he wants an earring, but I can't find anything I like, and have had zero luck looking out for the type that he wants to get Nick.

I have absolutely no idea what to get my family... Or the rest of my friends.

At least Hallmark still rocks my world.

I realized that I forgot to pick up Lysi's. I'll have to do that tomorrow...

I'm going shopping with Jay now.

But in honor of Return of the King tonight. YEAH BABY.... I leave you with this:

http://www.livejournal.com/users/mistergone/137525.html

HI~ Let me catch you up on my week.

Monday - The usual managers meeting. This one turned out ok. From there to Walmart with Lysi and Georgia to buy "Ribbon" for Wednesday. How did that work out?
Watched the parade downtown. It was really nice, and yes it was cold, so I don't hold a grudge.. Leah came out to see some of it, but she was still too sick to watch all of it. She got food poisoning from moldy spaghetti. I guess she wasn't really looking at what she was eating. x_x bleah. After the parade I packed my stuff and left around 10:30PM for the interstate..

Tuesday - Got to Jason's around 1AM. I tempted to try to stay awake till he got home from work so I played FFX-2 till 4AM. I was way too tired, so I didn't last. Jason got home at 7AM, and he freaked out when he saw his "bed" move on its own.. I don't know why, before he left for work I told him I'd see him when he got home... I guess he didn't fully believe me... After some much needed sleep I subjugated him to all my new toys and the like for the next two days. I got a second person addicted to PGSM! bwahahahaha.

Being at Jason's was something that I really needed. I had to get way from Staunton, and just ignore it for a few days, hence the "Gone." He does a good job of kicking my butt when it needs to be and we still have lots of fun.

Wednesday - I left Jason's around 4ish. Well, I tried to... Traffic was disasteriffic, and I was stuck in MD for at least an hour.. I didn't get to Staunton till 9:45PM. Not cool. I totally missed SOULS. So what did I do? I went to blockbuster.. to hang out with the Jessi(e)s. LOL. The store was totally dead, so we ended up watching GIA. But we were so edgy about it considering how much trouble we could get into for watching it at the store.. lol They had never seen it before. What cracked me up was that after the Gia/Linda sex scene they both Jessi(e)s went out to smoke. I guess it was that grood. Saw Nessa putting tapes into the drop box so I literally tossed my stuff aside and ran outside to hug her and Stina. :) I rented Sailor Moon (DIC) from work. Gotta get my Sailor V introduction from somewhere.. >,<

Thursday - Worked from 5PM till 12:30AM regardless of snow. And yes we made lots of money, because once again, Townies are fucking stupid. My dad came to pick me up and we dropped Elizabeth off at her place before heading home. Elizabeth said she's thinking of having a house warming party sometime in the future and she wants to invite some of the BBV crew... You'd go, wouldn't you, Will?

Made many more user icons....

Friday - Stopped by MBC to drop off Dorothy and the movies before heading off to work. Work was frenzied. I worked from 2-8 on the register non-stop. I barely noticed Amy and Kelly when they were there.. And other people? Did you guys actually rent something or just come in? Also saw Grotjohn, he only seems to rent movies when classes are done. lol. Even my doctor was in blockbuster yesterday.. >,< Lines were massive, and I was checking out this mother and daughter... So as we're finishing up the transaction the little girl kept telling me that I was beautiful. I had to have turned beat red, but I did say thank you. It was really cute. Jeff went to look up your number, Will. And I was checking in some tapes over at the CSR wrap. As he starts to look in the CSR book he say's "You know it, don't you Sara?" I replied "No." Then Jessie chimes in and say's, "Oh come on! Yes you do." I laughed at that and stated that I should probably know it, but I'm not good at memorizing numbers. My dad was at BBV by 8:30PM. We dropped Kristin off and headed to Stina's for the party. For it having started at 7ish? I think.. And getting there at 9 I didn't really miss much. Just most of Fight Club, which I've already seen.. I was there for the pressies, and cake and Se7en. Smoked a couple of cigs outside with Georgia. That was really nice because it had started snowing again. It was the first chance that I could really just watch the falling snow. Doesn't sound like much, but it was a big deal to me. The party ended at 1:30 and my dad got to Stina's round 2. He's finally met some of my friends, sort of. Lysi and Georgia got subjugated to his weird sense of humor. Then again, I go around telling everyone he's Santa Claus, my mom is Mrs. Claus and my cats are elves...

Saturday - After having dropped off Lysi and Georgia, Dad and I went home. I promptly took a bunch of advil. Migraine from work, me thinks... Also had 'mac 'n cheese for my meal of the day. A cupcake and some chips were just not going to cut it.. Today I have work from 2-10. I'm driving today. I also have to see if I can switch next Saturday with someone at work. I'll make it happen.

Tomorrow I do not work at all. Feels weird. Probably going to go to the concert thing at First Presbyterian.. And definitely visiting Lysi and Georgia. Maybe some movies and FFX-2 in there somewhere too...

Speaking of FFX-2. I have had my current music on loop for the past day. So good.

I warn you the that the first half of this post is extremely pretentious, but I just want to vent.

My sister, Catherine, called me last night. She asked me how life was, and I told her. She then managed to piss me off by giving me advice that didn't fully go with the situation, let alone seem fair coming from a woman who's been married to a prick for 7 years. I don't need to be told that I can live perfectly fine alone. That I don't need someone else in my life to validate it. I'm well aware of that, and that's not my intention.

I look Catherine and her husband and think why in hell is she still with him. He's been so bad to her in the past, and she held on to him like he's all she's worth. It made me sick to think about it at the time. And I don't know maybe he's finally grown up now and that's why they're ok, but I still feel that the bad out weighs the good in him.

Then I see all the other fucked situations that just don't make sense to me.. Like Janice, I see her and think how can she be married? Then I look at her husband, but I still say that's fucked.. (I think Will will be the only one who gets that statement...) And then I see my friends like Jessi, Pern and Jay, who deserve to be loved, but get fucked over and over again and scorned by it.

My parents being together make sense. But of course that would, right?

I got to see Love Actually. Some of it was sad, I didn't like how most of it turns out and let me say that looking back at the trailers that's some wicked editing.. Just evil. But overall it was a cute movie that swept me away in romance. Thomas Sangster stole the show. I won't go into detail because I want you to see it.

But I jumped ahead a bit. Last night was SVGLA at Blue Mountain Coffee's. Only Blue Mountain was closed. So we trucked over to the Bistro. It's always interesting having dinner with 7 gay men. I can't vote in December, I can't even join till after my birthday even if I've been going since last September. Rules and regulations, bah.

In geekdom news.. I am part of the PlayStation Underground, and they also invited me to be part of the Gamer Advisory Panel. I think Sony randomly picked me, but supposedly I'll actually make a difference if I voice my opinions, etc.. The best thing about it is that I got the letter in the mail.. It's all snazzy looking and says that it is to be opened by the addressee only.. It has my name, address and the proper number... but the letter starts out "Dear Zachary." ^^;;;;

Tonight was a good night for me.. Jay was supposed to be here when I got home, but that didn't happen. Stooopid R (is for Bob). I should kick his ass in XBL just for that.

Moving on..

Here's the highlight of it all:

Seeing Georgia and Amy's smiling faces as they walked through the door. ^___^ I was a grinning fool. Of course I had to still checkout customers, who probably thought I was on crack. I pulled a 360 in attitude. Huge grin, and being extremely nicer than normal. Hell I probably even started blushing because of the weird looks I was getting. I didn't care. I got hugs tonight.

You know I read somewhere that in order for people to be truly happy in life, they need at least 10 human touches a day. Just physical closeness like a hug, a caress and so forth. I haven't been able to find it again, though. hrm..

The funniest thing of the night took place while Janice was on break. I got hit on by this guy that was renting a movie. He was smiling strangely at me, I probably was too (aftereffects from earlier).. But anyways I looked at him like what? And he says "Make a wish." I was totally confused so he continued with "Your necklace is backwards." Dena always told me that meant that someone is thinking of you, so that's what I said as I rang him up. And right as he was leaving he said "Don't forget to make that wish." I replied that I already had. Which I did, only I can't say what it was. ^_^ Later Martina scolded me for leading him on, whatever, I was not leading him on.. It's not like I had to include random guy in wish. pfft.

Let's see what else.. My dad came by and got me food from Wendy's. He's my personal Santa. OH I should make that an icon! Then Will showed up, because he read my Away Message. Thanks Will. ^____^ He helped me stock the candy and sodas. Yes, my job is so fun folks..

Speaking of Folks, I left a note for Jessi saying DON'T YOU DARE TRY TO CALL ME IN TO WORK TOMORROW.

Benny & Joon.

I didn't think anyone would visit me.

Why? Because I'm an obsessive person as you all know. The more I try to change that the worse it gets. It's the biggest thing about myself that I hate. It freaks people out and I can't handle that so I hide in the darkness of my room and don't show my face for a year. I reappear under the guise of having gotten help and back on top of my game. Only a few people seem to be able to see through my bullshit. I'm 20 and still as gullible as when I was 5. Mike always used to say that I had obsessive phases, but he's wrong. They never really go away. People get sick of me and I finally get it through my thick skull that I should just shut the fuck up. Another reason why I don't talk much. I can't seem to learn from all my previously mistakes either. I constantly show up on people uninvited. Jay's the only one that likes that, encourages that in fact. He even gave me a key to his place. He gets annoyed when I tell him I'm coming up. It seems to be a pleasant surprise to Eddie. Anyone else is weirded out, as they should be.

I'm old reliable. If you ever need something just call me and I'll do it. It's not like I have anything better to do. I even show up at work when I don't need to be, like some sick puppy. But I'm not even a dog person, I'm a cat person. A few weeks ago Jessi asked me if I had a life, because I was willing to use my time off to get food for her and the CSR. She's right. I don't have a life. I never have. It's the only place I feel needed, and even then I know my coworkers think I'm weird, as do some of the customers. Even at SOULS, Amy made the comment about me being a work-a-holic. So why not be what everyone expects of me. I think I'll go for the Full-Time AM if Mark lets me. That way I won't even have time to fuck up my life, I mean lack of one. Really, who needs food and sleep?

Not me.

To everyone I always hurt. I'm sorry.

I went to AMA this weekend. I got a room for Friday night, and then saw Abdulhadi while I was getting a badge. So I went with him to Anime Across the World, International releases of Anime, which basically equals anime dubbed into Arabic. Everyone was there: Maram, David, Eddie, Sheldon and Jeremy. Eventually Sheldon and I got to talking about things in general, like his health and digital cameras. We totally avoided talking about our fight, but we were getting along ok. From there I went to help out Maram, Eddie and Hadi with Karaoke "Sing-Up." (Sign up). It went a lot better than last year. People had to bring their own music or they could sing a cappella. (Last year I brought a bunch of anime cds and it just got so confusing keeping track of them). We ripped the songs on to Hadi's laptop and then burned all the tracks to one cd to give to Dr. Andy. That way we they could just take their cds back and we didn't have to worry about them. It would of been a perfect setup, only if Hadi hadn't screwed up and forget to include a few of the tracks. ^^;;; But we were rushing him...

I really wanted to sing this year, so I tried to get Eddie to sing Cibo Matto's Birthday Cake with me, but he eventually copped out. I almost got up enough guts to sing Under Your Spell because I had the OMWF soundtrack with me, but I'm not that brave yet... Luckily Eddie did agree to sing Run DMC's Tricky as long as Jeremy and Sheldon would too. They were all for it. Maram had downloaded all of AnimeLyrics.com for people to use, but it didn't have Tricky, and we couldn't get a connection from the Hotel. Jay wasn't home, so I ended up calling my Dad and having him read off the lyrics to me. Only it was hard to hear him so he had to keep repeating. ^^;;; When we got called up to sing I took the microphone before Andy started the music and said "This is going to be very, very interesting." We sang the song, with a little mishaps of not remembering the whole song... And at the end we kept throwing out all these quotes... We were the only ones who got it though.. ^^;;; Maram was MC and tried to take the microphone back but we insisted that we had something else we wanted to do, so the four of us did a quick rendition of Strong Bad Techno. We were amused, but we weren't feeling the love from the audience.. ;_;

As always Andy and I shared our nice long hug. I think it would be weird to see Andy and not get a hug.... I had my hair up Friday, so he commented on that. Also how I'm just cool and easy going. Most people seem to think that, like Jay and Pernell. I guess I'm easy like that. On another note, he asked where you were Meridel. He remembered how we were singing along with OMWF at Katsnowcon. So you have been dubbed as my singing friend. ^_________^

Ysarric: man
Ysarric: i was talking to some dirty ol man yesterday
Ysarric: it's a scary vision of what i could have been if i has stayed as uber dork
Ysarric: but he's talking about how he'd like to do all the buffy chicks
Ysarric: starting with your redhead
Ysarric: then buff
Ysarric: then dawn
Ysarric: and THEN cordy
Ysarric: I shoulda knocked him out for wanting my girl AND for wanting her so far down the list AND for just being a dirty sukebe
Ysarric: i mean, dirty man
Ysarric: hahaha, oy vey
SaraLe: how old?
Ysarric: 50s
SaraLe: did he ask about season 4 or something? lol
SaraLe: wtf.
Ysarric: just imagine a white urkel, 50s, and bathes like the vikings
Ysarric: once a year
Ysarric: he knew about season 4
SaraLe: so how did the topic come up? so to speak......
Ysarric: i can't remember
Ysarric: i make some comment about his stacks of blank vhs he was buying
Ysarric: somehow buffy came up
Ysarric: he wanted to see when we'd have it
Ysarric: started talking about alyson on the cover
SaraLe: 10 like everyone else.
Ysarric: and then about the chicks overall
SaraLe: lol
Ysarric: and how he wished he could have a horse dick and big balls and I'm jsut trying to escape the nutty perv
Ysarric: not that i can't handle the conversation, but I was afraid of my imagination kicking in
SaraLe: So how did you get away?
SaraLe: Too bad I wasn't there to get your six. lmao
Ysarric: edging away while fastballing closing comments
SaraLe: He didn't start on Amber did he?
Ysarric: no, tara was excluded
SaraLe: ok. i have mixed feelings about that.
Ysarric: doesn't mean he wouldn't do her too. she just didnt' come up
SaraLe: lol i know. and im kinda relieved.
Ysarric: yeah, sorta like i was irked that he ranked charisma so low
SaraLe: yeah.
Ysarric: yet I rather dislike the idea of that fart jonesing for her
SaraLe: Exactly.
Ysarric: it was just "eww" all the way
SaraLe: Major wiggins? LOL
Ysarric: ugh
Ysarric: ok, diff topic from jisan sukebes

For those of you who have seen Wrong Turn. I would just like to state that my mother is from Greenbrier County. Lewisburg in fact. We've been visiting my Grandparents there ever since I was a baby. The only thing accurately portrayed about Greenbrier in that movie was that your cell phone does lose all signal. Everything else, not so much. Yet, I still highly enjoyed this movie. In fact I made Jay and Pern watch it with me. Granted I was the only laughing when the subtitle "Greenbrier County, WV" showed up on screen....